I 've got Sunshine

I've got sunshine
On a cloudy day.
When it's cold outside,
I've got the month of May.....
Lovely song isnt it...?

I ran away from home at the tender age of 3 . In the cold Himalayan cantonment town , the essentials i took with me were a pink frilly pair of panties and a tin of talcum powder......
I went looking for some sunshine..

From then on I have been running ,
into trouble, from the mistakes of the past,into arms which did not give comfort ...
I embraced ideals,exchanged them @ the megamarts of hope, sex, institution, whim and reality.
Still looking for my 'sunshine'

It has been my belief that we build our personalities to compensate
for the lack of a quality we seek in our lives and not the presence of it.

Many a bitter cynic wants something to believe in
Many a despot wants to be much loved and popular
Many a sworn homophobic questions his own sense of identity
Many a religious begot is looking for God
Many a wandering star is looking for a fixed place in the firmament
and Every one's looking for some sunshine

After 32 years of smashed relationships..I think i found my sunshine

Want some indicators..here goes..
You Know you've got sunshine when..

When someone lets you snore peacefully through the night without poking you every hour or getting irritated by you....:)
When someone gets the detergent, mop, brush, dry cloth ,wet cloth and cleans the house with you..:)
When someone goes out of their way, changes their route to drop you home :)
When someone whom you abuse roundly ....ignores you and comes around the next day with a new joke ...:).
When someone looks at you and believes , that you look better without make up , though their sanity may be questionable but ..:)
When someone holds your hand in a dark hour and never reminds you of it or makes you compensate for it ..:)
And of course the sure shot way of knowing when you have got sunshine ,is when someone lends you money and forgets all about it(This of course ,is the next level of finding sunshine..it's like owning the sun)

So
It may not be one person ,
it may be a tribe, it may be a stranger, it may be your wife...
It will definitely not be the tele-caller on the phone..
But the only way to find your sunshine...
IS TO MAKE YOUR OWN.....Ha and you thought it would just fall into your lap..nice and easy!.